This is my story
So many others relate
Yet some have no clue
So much escapes me
A black curtain in my brain
A wordsmith no more
Cruel neuropathy
Tingles throughout my body
A slave to its pain
Lost identity
Nothing is as it once was
What is my purpose
Darkness fills my days
Shadows where there was once sun
My light has gone out
Such anxiety
Who, what, where, when, why, and how
Constant in my head
Loneliness fills me
A shell of who I once was
When does this Hell end
Endless confusion
Fog where once was clarity
Lost within my head
Swelling, heavy, pain
Angry red inflammation
Will it ever end
Headaches and neck aches
Joints, muscles, tendons, and nerves
Relentless attack
Where do I fit in
Who I once was is now gone
Emptiness engulfs
Exiting this world
Scary yet maybe relief
A burden no more
Lonely, lost
Once so happy
Nothing as it was before
Gone is the life I loved
Clarity is hard to find
Over and over my mind races
Visualizing the future is challenging
Images of the past flood my head
Dust in the wind, as the song goes...
Illness
painful, endless
fights, takes, strangles, stabs, stings
Attacking without compassion
Covid
It attacked me once, then came back for more
I never imagined such symptoms galore
Healthy
Happy, Active,
Teaching, Playing, Laughing
Fulfilled, Content, Sadness, Despair
Fighting, Struggling, Pleading
Cruel, Ruthless
Disease
There once was a girl who loved to teach
But then it became out of reach
She stomped on the floor
Because she could teach no more
And now she says life is a "beach"
